Well, our daughter, Courtney has been gone over a month now. Previous times when she has left, we knew where she was staying. This time we do not. I asked her youngest sister today if she knew where Courtney was staying. She said no. I told her that someone needs to find out where she is staying so if something happens to her, we know where to look for her. Courtney speaks to her sisters on the phone, I think. But she is not speaking to us. The last time she left, she acted like it was normal that she left, and she was living a normal life. We were just strange because we didn't like her friends. This time I don't think she cares what we think.
I have been reading a lot. I am currently reading "When Your Child Breaks Your Heart" by Barbara Johnson. I love to read her books. I can really relate to the way Barbara feels. Her child was a homosexual (he has since left that lifestyle). This is not the problem with our daughter, but I can relate to Barbara's feelings of loss when her son leaves home and she doesn't know where he is. Of her wanting to find another mother to talk to, who has lived through this and can explain it to her. I feel exactly the same way. I just want to meet someone who's child has come back to everyday normal life. I want them to tell me that everything will be fine, and how I can fix this. So far that is not happening.
Another thing I have done this week is to join some Internet support groups. Once again, I don't seem to find anyone whose situation is like mine. One group is for mothers of incarcerated adult children. That is not my situation, but I found them because their title is about prodigals. They have been very welcoming to me and seem to be kind, caring women.
I feel God pulling me to do something here. I really believe there are other mothers like me somewhere, who need support and answers. I just can't seem to find them.