Tuesday, October 8, 2013

Day 9 of 31 Days of Being the Prodigals' Mom

I am looking for a new church home.  About a month ago, on a Wednesday night, the preacher taught about how Christians don't have problems in their life, if the faith is what it should be.  He went on and on about this.  How he didn't have any problems.  I guess it just grated on me.  Finally, I stood up, and said, "Let me make certain I understand what you are saying.  You believe," I'm speaking very slowly, trying to think about how I want to say this while I talk. "That if I had a more, ..... PERFECT faith, ....... That I wouldn't be in court with my daughter?!".  Everyone one hushes, and their mouths fall open.  Women don't speak out in my church.  But my husband isn't a believer, so I don't have any choice.  I have to clarify this.  He slowly looks down, then back up toward me.  "Yes, that is what I believe.  And I believe that if you studied it more, you would see that I am right".

Well, I finally, breathed, then sat down.  I crossed my arms, and didn't say anything else the rest of the night.  After the lesson was over, the preacher's wife came over to talk to me.  She, and everyone else knew I was mad.  I left, and I believe I have only been back once. 

We are now visiting churches.  I knew for a while that my beliefs were different than the preacher's, and that I was going to have to leave.  But I was trying to wait till our court stuff was over.  So now we are visiting other churches.  And I get an email that we have court next week.  So I have to decide if I will ask the preacher to go with us.  He has before.  Just not sure I want to be in that position, of asking. 

It's hard right now to talk about what is going on with us.  I don't feel I should be discussing this publically, and am paranoid that someone might recognize us.  One day, when this is all over an resolved, I will write the truth.  All of it.

Thursday, October 3, 2013

Day 5 of 31 Days of Being the Prodigals' Mom

For the last few years, I have been looking for a group of other prodigal's moms to talk to, pray with, to support and find friendship with.  I have found a couple of groups who have made a lot of difference to me this year.  Two of the groups are secret, private groups on Face book.  In one of these groups, I have met another mom who has 4 prodigal children.  I have had two, though currently I only have one.  This group made me realize that my story is not the saddest or worst one there.  I don't know people in real life who deal with prodigal children.  So it has been eye opening to have other people that I can compare my life to. 

Some good things I am holding to this week, concerning my prodigal:

She has not been arrested or in prison before.

She has a job

She is healthy

I know where she is

She was raised in the church and knows the Lord.

One day I hope she realizes she desires the life God has planned for her.

Tuesday, October 1, 2013

Day 2: 31 Days of Being the Prodigals' Mom

Day 2:  31 Days of  Being the Prodigals' Mom
Today's is our prodigal's day to visit her child.  She started texting me this morning that she wanted to meet at a local restaurant that has a play area, tonight.  Usually when she does this, someone just happens to show up at the visitation, who isn't suppose to be there.  So we didn't go, and she didn't complain.  But she didn't come see her child either.  She called to talk to him two or three times, but couldn't drive 10 miles to eat with him or spend an hour with him.  She saw him a week ago for a couple of hours.  Then she saw him Saturday for about 15 minutes.  I never thought the day would come where she would choose a man over being her child's mom.  If I spend much time thinking about it, it makes me sad.  

Monday, September 30, 2013

Day 1 - 31 Days of Being the Prodigals' Mom

Day 1 :  31 Days of Being the Prodigals' Mom

Hello friends.  My topic for this 31 Day challenge is 31 Days of Being the Prodigals' Mom.  So much has happened in the last year, that it is hard to know where to start.  Instead of writing this like a diary, I will just talk about a topic each day.  Something I am dealing with currently in my quest to bring all my prodigals home.

One of our daughters came home in the spring.  Although it was hard being together again, things are great now.  She has made a lot of progress and is living on her own.  She is working on getting some court stuff paid off, so she can get her license back.  She is doing great and plans to go in the Military as soon as she finishes with her legal fines.

Our other daughter is not doing so well.  She has moved several times in the last six months.  She has changed jobs several times as well.  She broke up with her boy friend, got back together, and that status changes daily. 

The newest thing going on is that she has started posting about what horrible parents we are on the Internet.  Then all her friends comment on it and agree with her.  What is funny is that then, many times her friend's mothers, aunts, or grandmothers will contact me and tell me about these rants on the web.  In this way, the girls are able to tell our daughter they didn't tell us, but they want us to know what is said.  Our daughter has blocked our entire family, so no one can see what she does or says.  But still I know. 

I have recently found an Internet support group of other mothers of prodigal.  It is great.  The very first day, I realized that my story was not the "worst" story there.  That is never the case in person, among people I really know.  One lady had several prodigal children.  And she still functions and has a life.  I am seeing that I can get through this.  I just have to hold on to the fact that our life is not always going to be this way.  If it is, don't anyone tell me different, because I don't think I could stand it!

Till tomorrow!

Sunday, September 29, 2013

31 Days of Being the Prodigals' Mom starts Tuesday!

The blogger "31 Days of" Link up with The Nester Blog starts Tuesday October 1.  I hope you will check back with me here.

I believe this is my second year linking up, and I plan to discuss what I have learned in the last year as the Prodigals' Mom.  One of my children came home and is doing well.  Another is not doing so well. 

I have been able to find some support for myself in a few places this past year.  Maybe I can share a little of what I've learned with you here.  See you Tuesday!


Please scroll down to see each day's post!  Each will be titled Day ___ of 31 Days of Being a Prodigals' Mom

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

Happy New Year 2013

Hello friends.  It has been about 6 weeks since I have been here to publish any news.  I have been doing some self examination.  I have decided that I need to move forward with my life, day by day.  I need to put my family that lives with me first.  I can't go back to the way things used to be, no matter how much I'd like to.  I just need to keep going forward.  That is all I can do.

I hope you all have a wonderful new year.  The best ever.  I hope we can all say that this time next year.  That 2013 was the best year ever.  Dawn